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left hanging?

My mother is the proud owner of a new heart valve, a repaired aneurysm (ascending aorta), and a heart bypass.We’re still trying to get surgery number two scheduled (descending aorta and abdominal aorta).

Mom has also been my roommate for the past six weeks. I am nearly constantly in awe of this fact, never having been good at sharing space with others and having been routinely awful at being in close quarters with my parents. I think we both feel like a guest in my own home.

Dad’s leg is healing, but I think his broken fibula is slower going than mom’s broken sternum.

The details of the story are boring, and difficult only for me. I’m just here, hanging, until I’m free to commit myself full time to something other than my folks.

enough already

Dad broke his leg today.

The universe already sent me this bullshit, with this for good measure.

The Worrying Way

Try The Worryin’ Way by The Fabulettes

I have lost 10 pounds in less than a week. Admittedly, some of it was steroid bloat (oh, my friend methylprednisolone inspires me to cooking and eating wackiness). But a good deal was worry, hard worry, and its friend, the hospital hike.

My mom was admitted to the hospital from the ER last week, and there they discovered several large aneurysms throughout her aorta. In the next few days, she’ll have her first surgery. Things I hope you, internet stranger, will never have to go through

  • Calling for a paramedic
  • Refusing food, water, or smokes to a family member (waiting for an ambulance)
  • Riding in an ambulance
  • Being moved to the “bigger room” in the ER
  • Watching your loved ones say important things to one another because they are rightfully scared
  • Choosing a surgeon
  • Listening to people tell you that your layoff was a good thing, even though yes, you too are grateful for the freedom to schedule yourself.

Mom is better than she was a week ago–and therefore will be even better for her first surgery. That’s right, there will be more. Wish us luck.

That song up there is about bad romance, and I’m telling you, a break up sounds almost good right now.